Chemistry

Every time it comes to chemistry lessons, I always have a very reluctant feeling in me. One side of me tells me that I want to learn Chemistry but the other side of me tells me that I had enough with Chemistry.

When JC1 started off, i was quite enthusiastic with Chemistry. It was like the lesson that i most looked forward to. Partly due to me liking Chemistry and partly due to the wonderful tutor that my class had. I still remember after PAE when there was a reshuffling of teachers and classmates, i was super happy when i saw her walk down the corridor for our first Chemistry lesson. Happiness was an understatement at that time.

But now, its a totally different story. In my honest opinion, she is now just a purely results orientated teacher. I try not to think so much about it but it really is very hard to ignore that feeling in me. Yes it is our fault to write the wrong stuff in the test papers, yes we failed you, yes we disappointed you but is it really purely our fault? Our fault to make this mistakes? I mean there is always this factor of human error and something things that go wrong will go wrong. Its not like we students want to purposely write the wrong stuff in the test papers, in fact we don't want to. Who doesn't want to get high scores for whatever tests they take, whatever examinations they take? All of us feel happy when we eventually get good results but we too feel sad, disappointed with ourselves when we fail or make silly mistakes that put us at a disadvantage.

It feels horrible to realise that a mistake has been made. Just terrible. Is rubbing it in really necessary? Perhaps it will leave a deep impression in us but then again where is the humane side of doing such a thing? Maybe such a "rubbing it in" session will help us in the future when we take our papers in the next few months, by then i would be thanking you all the way till there are no more other means but then again, are there really no other methods to make us understand and learn from our mistakes other than having a "rubbing it in" real hard session? Maths was something that i totally hated. Totally. I took maths tutorials and lectures for granted and just ignored Miss Kuah and Mr Tan during lectures and tutorials. But when she took over our class in J2, I realised that she was a tutor and lecturer that did not just care about our results, our grades, but also someone who cared about the welfare and wellness of her students. This was a motivating factor that led me to at least pick up my pencil and give maths a try. From then on, i got so hooked onto it that it really became an enjoyment whenever i could solve a maths question. For that, i really respect her.

Perhaps it has been proven that scolding sessions work the best in obtaining results that are satisfiable but does that mean that without scolding, satisfiable results are unattainable? I agree to the act of scolding but only at appropriate situations. That is my believe, which is why i don't lose my temper easily at anyone unless that person is pushing my limits. In my honest opinion, excessive reprimanding sessions are harmful, and I'm beginning to feel the effects of it. It has been getting too common nowadays, so much so that I'm beginning to lose interest in it. In the past when I did Chemistry tutorials, I did it with a thinking in my mind that its for me cause I'm actually enriching myself with information but now when i pick up that stack of paper, my mood dampens. Its as if I'm studying Chemistry to satisfy her demand for our good grades.

Oh well, this is just purely my opinion and i seriously don't mean any harm. I just want to let the steam of anger out of me so that i will feel better. It may be a very biased opinion but this is truly what i think about it.